More than words can tell….

Image for post
Image for post
Image captured by Author

I did not understand the meaning of a single clap by a reader of one of my Medium posts until I actually got my first one. It felt good. No, it felt great. It was tremendous! I whatsapped my friend, The Advisor, (I have spoken about her before), and said, “I got my first clap.” She sent back a few more via our Whatsapp chat but those did not really count as much.

I think it was the mere fact that validation came from someone I did not know from Adam. …


Image for post
Image for post
Author’s Selfie

The toughest year of my life was 2019. In retrospect, I figured it was a dress rehearsal for 2020.

I suffered some personal blows that lead me to seek refuge in the famous, “Who am I and why am I here” question. The painful process led me down a path that had me taking up a paintbrush for the first time in my life and I began to put acrylic to paper and then to canvas and by the beginning of 2020, I had almost 100 pieces and many of my questions answered.

For some reason, (I have still not…


Instead, look for the spaces of no-thought

Image for post
Image for post
Photo by JOSHUA COLEMAN on Unsplash

Every day I read about persons asking about meditation and how to do it. They share their frustration at not being able to ‘get it right’ because they could not stop their thoughts. So instead of sitting quietly and experiencing whatever they figure they should be experiencing, they end up with thoughts about work, their partner, their neighbor’s dog, their children, the economy, unemployment, the pandemic, and… and as a consequence, no peace was felt. Then, upset and anxious, they see their ‘failed’ process as another thing they did not get right.

I believe that there is no wrong or…


Nature is Supernatural

Image for post
Image for post
Photo by Muhammad Yasir on Unsplash

I went to my garden early this morning. I was hoping to pick my salad greens and herbal tea leaves while the droplets from the early morning rain were still on the plants. It was supposed to be a quick pick and go. Today was Saturday and there was a lot of not to do. I did not see any monkeys in the nearby trees so I guessed they had beaten me to the ripe sugar apple and almost ripe avocado I was looking at from the evening before. I shrugged. So what? …


Everything has its good side

Image for post
Image for post
Photo by Ben Libby on Unsplash

I planted some pumpkin seedlings about two and a half months ago, smack dab in the middle of the summer’s heat. Since there was little rain, they had to be kept alive by daily hand watering. They wanted to grow and produce but it was obviously difficult for them, then the beautiful butterflies came in mass, laying eggs on every bush in the garden including these pumpkin vines, making the struggle for survival a real one. My five plants, down from six, were now at war against heat and worms. There were times when the worm damage was so bad…


One does not come without the other

Image for post
Image for post
Artwork by Author

Change is not always a bad thing. Sometimes we are called to make changes that are small, manageable, and basically pain-free, and other times, changes are so impactful that they completely alter life as we know it. The year 2020 was not an easy one for many of us. The kinks in our amours were exposed, our vulnerabilities were laid bare and we began to understand that continuing to live the way we did was not in our best interest. We had to change.

For those of us who lost jobs, we had to find some other means of supporting…


Sometimes it is all we have to hold onto

Image for post
Image for post
Artwork by Author

Miss Gen Z and I had a strong debate recently, actually, it was very strong and would have measured about 9.0 on the Richter scale. I do not like to term our dueling with words as an argument, it gives a negative connotation to the interaction. I prefer the term debate because at the end of it, almost always we would have learned something new about the other and about our view of life which ultimately strengthens the bond between us. If you have been reading my stories, you would have met Miss Gen Z already and I know you…


Your invitation is in the mail

Image for post
Image for post
Artwork by Author

I am getting married and brimming with excitement. The engagement is official and it will be a grand affair. In the meantime, I am getting to know my partner better,

the dark side,

the shadow side,

the jealous side,

the critical side,

the self-debasing side,

the lack-of-confidence side,

the hurt-inner-child side,

the daddy issues side,

the timid side,

the insecure side,

the energy vampire side,

the boring side,

the fearful side,

the hateful side,


Every Drop Renews and Replenishes

Image for post
Image for post
Image captured by author

I started a community vegetable garden in the middle of summer and it was a struggle to keep it going. Living in the tropics with long days, high heat indices, and little to no rain at this time of the year, attempting to cultivate a kitchen garden during these months was really a trip down insanity lane. But it was something I had been if-ing and but-ing about for a while so when I finally got the area fenced and the garden beds prepared, putting seedlings into the earth was naturally the next step.

I have always had this strong…


Or is there a difference?

Image for post
Image for post
Photo by Jan Canty on Unsplash

Where imagination stops and true intuition begins is a question many of us ask ourselves. We doubt our abilities to discern, and this continued confused state of mind leads us to believe that this whole spirituality and mysticism thing is all madness.

I have struggled with a similar lack of clarity, spending many months being unsure, trying to separate one from the other to no avail until one day, an explanation of the difference was revealed.

It was very subtly, one of the tricks of the Universe- no ringing bells and flashing bulbs, but quietly and stealthily, cat-woman-like.

Often, if…

I. Trudie Palmer

Writing lets me promote the work of Esoteric Gardens. Here we explore creativity, meditation, spirituality, and more. Find us at https://ilis-palmer.pixels.com/

Get the Medium app

A button that says 'Download on the App Store', and if clicked it will lead you to the iOS App store
A button that says 'Get it on, Google Play', and if clicked it will lead you to the Google Play store